I was amazed at the amount of freedom that came with knowing who one of my former girlfriends is in a relationship with.

Upon asking a few people about him it turns out he’s not a bad guy, but according to two separate people he’s a major pot head who smokes weed all the time.   I may have had a lot of flaws like putting my job before my girlfriend, or when I was angry myself being blind to the hurt and frustration she had – but at least I’m not on something.   I guess we all have our flaws.

It did irritate me and hurt a little bit when one of my former girlfriends said that I’m a mean person. I can say mean things in the heat of passion, but I don’t set out to hurt anyone purposely.   I don’t think I’m mean – it struck me as rather ironic someone being mean by telling me I’m mean.   I suspect that she didn’t think I was mean when we were together (unless she confused rude with mean).

Finding out who he was bothered me as I was directly lied to (as opposed to not answering, or being economical with the truth), but it’s still an awesome thing being in the know.

Now that I know who he is – I’m free.   I’m no longer wondering if she left me for a woman abusing drunk, or a crack dealer.   Life goes on with freedom and laughter.

Ryan Paul

Just some Canadian guy who used to be British, and who has come to be highly ashamed at the chapters in Canadian history concerning Aboriginal people.

4 Responses

  1. Sam says:

    Good to know yr getting on. Thats all I’ll say. Happiness has it’s way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it. Happens all the time 🙂

  2. Ryan says:

    Happiness didn’t sneak up on me. It was released upon me by the actions of two people.

    I realised I’m worth a lot more than some people say I am… realising that I’m actually a decent guy… realising I need a woman who is capable of near unconditional devotion.

    These are the things that have set me free 🙂

  3. Sam says:

    That’s good, we each get what we deserve n I’m damn glad that ain’t you. 🙂

  4. Ryan Paul says:

    I’m glad that you’re glad.

    We all have our levels in life and mine is going up.


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